I think the title speaks for itself. My relationship with God and God in my relationships.
You know... I always say I Love God and I definitely do...I've always loved him as a friend but I've never really treated him as a lover. I mean I never said to myself... I'm absolutely irrevocably in love with the Lord. It just seemed a bit wrong to have that sort of relationship with God I guess that was why my relationship with the Lord was constantly shaky. I merely treated him a a friend. A confidant in times of need but as they say, out of side, out of mind. A friend is someone whom you can click with, someone who is always there for you and you for them etc. But there is no REAL COMMITMENT in friendship. A relationship however is different. Being in love, there is a commitment. I devote myself to the person, I constantly dream and think of the person. My life revolves around that person. That is EXACTLY how I should treat the Lord. Previously, I kept telling myself that the Lord is the most important person in my life and I really did mean it... just my actions and behaviour didn't really show it in the sense... everything I do... it wasnt for the Lord.. I didn't do what I did to please the Lord. If the Lord is supposedly the centre of my life, I would 1)constantly think of him 2)Think of ways to please him and make him happy 3)put him above everthing else 4)purposely make time to spend it with him. My changed perspective: I am in love with God (compare to I love God)
While getting into a relationship, I was once asked: How does God fit into your relationship. I was stunned. I didn't know how to answer it. I realised that all of my relationships... friendship or siblings... had not been God-centered. I can confidently say that I love every single one of my friends greatly but I had never really thought of bringing God into those relationships. Yes, I do put their interest over mine alot of times however I failed to bring God into those relationships. I think that was why D told me I wasn't ready to start a relationship because the fact is, I haven't learnt to bring God into friendships...How am I suppose to bring God into relationships. To add to that... my relationship with T had taken an ungodly course and in some ways we were defying God... I think that was why the Lord said no to us getting together. Even though emotionally it might/might not have been pleasing in the Lord's eyes... in other aspects, we were defying God. The fact is for a relatinship to truly work, it might be pleasing in God's eyes in EVERY aspect. (e.g. that are not half-truths.... it is either a lie or a truth... similarly it is either a good relationship in God's eyes or a bad one). My changed perspective: I need to bring God into my relationships with friends and otherwise.
To do: 1) read up on how to bring god into friends- from there progress into bringing God into relationships.
2) make sure that my life is centered around God; I am in love with God. (keep reminding myself that)
